naengmyun

Deep thoughts ... or something

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 05:22:16 GMT

Am I the only one who sometimes re-reads old LJ entries and is amazed at life's twists and turns? Hard to believe I've been posting in mine for five years. I'm glad I have it as a chronicle of my experiences.

Nowadays, I can barely stand to re-read anything pre-2005. I was so naive as to how much more growing up I had to do. Still in the process of learning that broken relationships are NOT the end of the world. There used to be lots of those, for some reason. Ben, Ji Hoon, Andy, Matt. Borany.

My path to the most valuable self-discovery I've ever made, accepting that I need to learn how to make myself happy regardless of anyone else in my life ... it's in here. So are detailed accounts of some of the best times of my life. My first trip to NYC. Vacations to Socal and then ultimately living there.

All of my crazyass work experiences. Mending fences with loved ones. Gotta say, making amends with Borany is definitely one of the most fulfilling experiences I've had. It'll be interesting to see if that someday happens with Susana too. She's going to have to bridge that gap herself, though. Not interested in making the effort on someone who so thoroughly and unjustifiably shit on our friendship.

I can't believe I've been in Arizona almost two years. Kuh-raaaazy! When I moved here, I thought I'd be lucky to last one full year. I'm hoping 2009 is the year I can relocate to SD, but work will determine that.

Testing newest icon ...

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 09:26:51 GMT

... in honor of S.E.S, my favorite singers. Two years ago today they broke up. Doesn't seem like it could be that long, but on the other hand it feels like forever since they were last together as S.E.S. I miss them.

nah kwaen chan ah

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 04:00:42 GMT

Today actually has been not so bad. I've felt worse physically than mentally, which is of course because of my crapass work schedule. Whereas the past few days, it's been pretty equal. I'm still tired all the time, and my biological clock is now officially completely backward. Slept from about 10:30 this morning to 4:30 this afternoon, tried to eat dinner before I left for the P-I but wasn't hungry. I've been eating "dinner" around midnight...well actually, I tried to for the first time last night and felt much better at work. Was actually chatty and more awake than usual, although it probably also had something to do with the guy I was sitting by, Jeffrey. Really nice guy, really cool, really easy to talk to. I like him and hope he and I will be able to hang out even after our MSNBC stint is over. I feel that way about all of the friends I've made there; all very cool people. Although Michael, funny as he is, tends to give me a headache with all his incessant talking so early in the morning.

Looking forward to the weekend and having Saturday off, even though I have to be at MSNBC at 1 on Sunday morning. It'll be nice being off from MSNBC on Monday and Tuesday. I never thought I'd be so excited about Mondays and Tuesdays. Too bad I have to work at the P-I both of those days.

Despite all of my complaining about how tired I am and how cracked out my schedule is, I'm going to miss the MSNBC job when it's over. I wonder if I'd be able to get on with them fulltime. I was talking to my boss George earlier today, and when I mentioned being interested in working there fulltime he said it would be great. I don't know if that'll actually translate into it happening, but we'll see. I think I've just been at the P-I for too long. That, plus I'm tired of all the red tape there, and the few upper-level assholes who think they're above it all.

Am hoping to catch a movie on Saturday but I don't know if I'll be up for it. I want to see "Collateral" or "Open Water," though there are a bunch more I also want to catch before they leave the theaters. Still need to see the complete "I, Robot." =p

Shit, it's 9. Gotta get back to work.

translation, version II

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 19:39:11 GMT

korean/romanization to lee soo young's "lalala." not going to throw the translation in there cuz that would muck things up too much (and besides, just scroll down if you want it, or ask questions =p).

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lee soo young, "lalala"

어느새 잊었나봐요
[oh neul sae ee jaet nah bwah yo]
그대가 떠났다는걸
[keu dae gah dduh naht dah neun guhl]
내가 이래요 철 없는 바보야
[nae gae ee rae yo chuhl upt neun pah boh ya]
아직도 전화가 오면 그대 일거란 생각에
[ah jik doh chun hwa gah oh myun geu dae il guh rahn saeng gak ae]
나의 목소릴 먼저 가다듬고는 하죠
[na yae mohk soh ril muhn jah gah dah deem goh neun ha chyoh]
습관이란 무섭죠 생각처럼 안돼요
[seub gwan ee rahn moo suhb chyoh saeng gak chuh ruhm ahn dwae yo]
이별보다 사랑에 더 익숙하니까
[ee byul boh dah sa rang ae duh eek sook ha ni ggah]

*(chorus)
잊어볼께요 안되도 해볼께요
[ee chuh bohl ggae yo ahn dwae doh hae bohl ggae yo]
사랑도 추억도 없었던 것처럼
[sa rang doh choo uhk doh up suht duhn guht chuh ruhm]
lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala~

쇼핑을 하면 무심코 그대몫까지 사다가
[shyoh ping eul ha myun moo shim koh geu dae mohk ggah ji sah dah gah]
다시 말없이 내려논 바보야
[da shi mal up shi nae ryuh nohn pah boh ya]
좋은영화가 나오면
[joh eun young hwa gah nah oh myun]
"꼭 같이 보러 가야지"
[ggohk ka tchi boh ruh gah yah ji"]
나도 몰래 또 그런 생각해요
[nah doh mohl lae ddoh geu ruhn saeng gak hae yo]
그댄 그랬던 적 없었나요 한번이라도
[geu daen geu raet duhn chuh kup suh nah yo han buhn ee rah doh]
헤어진 그날로 끝인건가요
[hae uh chin geu nal loh ggeut chin guhn gah yo]

변해볼께요 그대가 그랬듯이
[byul hae bohl ggae yo geu dae gah geu raet deu shi]
이제는 또 다른 사랑도 할께요
[ee jae neun ddoh dah reun sa rang doh hal ggae yo]
시간이 흘러 그렇게 살다보면
[shi gan ee heul luh geu ruh gae sal dah boh myun]
누구든 내겐 또 익숙해 지겠죠
[noo goo deun nae gaen ddoh eek sook hae ji gaet chyoh]

잊어볼께요 안되도 해볼께요
[ee chuh bohl ggae yo ahn dwae doh hae bohl ggae yo]
사랑도 추억도 없었던 것처럼
[sa rang doh choo uhk doh up suht duhn guht chuh ruhm]
lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala~

그대 날 잊고 나도 변해볼께요
[geu dae nal eet goh nah doh byun hae bohl ggae yo]
그대가 그럤듯이 이제는 또다른 사랑을 할께요
[geu dae gah geu raet deu shi ee jae neun ddoh dah reun sa rang eul hal ggae yo]
시간이 흘러 그렇게 살다보면
[shi gan ee heul luh geu ruh gae sal dah boh myuh]
누구든 내겐 또 익숙해 지겠죠
[noo goo deun nae gaen ddoh eek sook hae ji gaet chyoh]
잊어볼께요 안되도 해볼께요
[ee chuh bohl ggae yo ahn dwae doh hae bohl ggae yo]
사랑도 추억도 없었던 것처럼
[sa rang doh choo uhk doh up suht duhn guht chuh ruhm]
다신 못볼 그대여 안녕~
[dah shin moht bohl geu dae yuh ahn nyung~]

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 19:29:14 GMT

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lee soo young, "lalala"

어느새 잊었나봐요
[oh neul sae ee jaet nah bwah yo]
그대가 떠났다는걸
[keu dae gah dduh naht dah neun guhl]
내가 이래요 철 없는 바보야
[nae gae ee rae yo chuhl upt neun pah boh ya]
아직도 전화가 오면 그대 일거란 생각에
[ah jik doh chun hwa gah oh myun geu dae il guh rahn saeng gak ae]
나의 목소릴 먼저 가다듬고는 하죠
[na yae mohk soh ril muhn jah gah dah deem goh neun ha chyoh]
습관이란 무섭죠 생각처럼 안돼요
[seub gwan ee rahn moo suhb chyoh saeng gak chuh ruhm ahn dwae yo]
이별보다 사랑에 더 익숙하니까
[ee byul boh dah sa rang ae duh eek sook ha ni ggah]

*(chorus)
잊어볼께요 안되도 해볼께요
[ee chuh bohl ggae yo ahn dwae doh hae bohl ggae yo]
사랑도 추억도 없었던 것처럼
[sa rang doh choo uhk doh up suht duhn guht chuh ruhm]
lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala~

쇼핑을 하면 무심코 그대몫까지 사다가
[shyoh ping eul ha myun moo shim koh geu dae mohk ggah ji sah dah gah]
다시 말없이 내려논 바보야
[da shi mal up shi nae ryuh nohn pah boh ya]
좋은영화가 나오면
[joh eun young hwa gah nah oh myun]
"꼭 같이 보러 가야지"
[ggohk ka tchi boh ruh gah yah ji"]
나도 몰래 또 그런 생각해요
[nah doh mohl lae ddoh geu ruhn saeng gak hae yo]
그댄 그랬던 적 없었나요 한번이라도
[geu daen geu raet duhn chuh kup suh nah yo han buhn ee rah doh]
헤어진 그날로 끝인건가요
[hae uh chin geu nal loh ggeut chin guhn gah yo]

변해볼께요 그대가 그랬듯이
[byul hae bohl ggae yo geu dae gah geu raet deu shi]
이제는 또 다른 사랑도 할께요
[ee jae neun ddoh dah reun sa rang doh hal ggae yo]
시간이 흘러 그렇게 살다보면
[shi gan ee heul luh geu ruh gae sal dah boh myun]
누구든 내겐 또 익숙해 지겠죠
[noo goo deun nae gaen ddoh eek sook hae ji gaet chyoh]

잊어볼께요 안되도 해볼께요
[ee chuh bohl ggae yo ahn dwae doh hae bohl ggae yo]
사랑도 추억도 없었던 것처럼
[sa rang doh choo uhk doh up suht duhn guht chuh ruhm]
lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala lalala~

그대 날 잊고 나도 변해볼께요
[geu dae nal eet goh nah doh byun hae bohl ggae yo]
그대가 그럤듯이 이제는 또다른 사랑을 할께요
[geu dae gah geu raet deu shi ee jae neun ddoh dah reun sa rang eul hal ggae yo]
시간이 흘러 그렇게 살다보면
[shi gan ee heul luh geu ruh gae sal dah boh myuh]
누구든 내겐 또 익숙해 지겠죠
[noo goo deun nae gaen ddoh eek sook hae hi gaet chyoh]
잊어볼께요 안되도 해볼께요
[ee chuh bohl ggae yo ahn dwae doh hae bohl ggae yo]
사랑도 추억도 없었던 것처럼
[sa rang doh choo uhk doh up suht duhn guht chuh ruhm]
다신 못볼 그대여 안녕~
[dah shin moht bohl geu dae yuh ahn nyung~]

currentz 05.16.04

Mon, 17 May 2004 04:13:45 GMT

uuugh, there's so little to do at work tonight it almost seems like a waste to drive all the way up here and back. i wish i could be working on my ayu graphic. -_- anyway.

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(not necessarily in order)

[x] 10 SONGS you listen to the most

[01] s.e.s -- love
[02] g.o.d. -- kil (the road)
[03] 1tym -- cry
[04] s -- tears of the moon
[05] as one -- haengbok han nal deul (happy days)
[06] isak n jiyeon -- the way i love u
[07] shoo -- yuhn in chuh rum (feel like)
[08] eugene -- sarang ingayo (is it love? goodbye)
[09] ryu -- my memory
[10] s -- i swear

[x] 9 ARTISTS you listen to the most

[01] s.e.s
[02] s
[03] eugene
[04] bada
[05] shoo
[06] park jung hyun
[07] fly to the sky
[08] lee soo young
[09] ayu (lately, courtesy of grace =p)

[x] 8 THINGS/etc. you do everyday

[01] check e-mail
[02] read and/or post in lj
[03] chat with friends
[04] talk on phone
[05] work on random graphics
[06] listen to music
[07] eat korean food
[08] procrastinate on something else i should be doing

[x] 7 DANCERS you admire/like

[01] lee minwoo
[02] se7en
[03] bi
[04] usher
[05] justin timberlake
[06] baby vox
[07] lee jung hyun

[x] 6 MOVIES you would recommend

[01] chingu (friend)
[02] chib eu roh (the way home)
[03] cthd
[04] casablanca
[05] dazed & confused
[06] eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

[x] 5 ARTISTS whose music you recently downloaded

[01] usher
[02] j kwon
[03] old-school s.e.s
[04] dbsk
[05] brian joo

[x] 4 VOICES you'll never grow tired of

[01] kangta
[02] shin hyesung
[03] ock ju hyun
[04] christina aguilera

[x] 3 MUSIC VIDEOS/PERFORMANCES you watched recently

[01] minwoo -- bi yah!
[02] bada -- can't hold us down (dance contest)
[03] se7en -- wah joh

[x] 2 SONGS whose lyrics you particularly love

[01] g.o.d. -- kil
[02] ock ju hyun -- nahn

[x] 1 PERSON you deeply love

[01] ummm. yeah.

bored at work...

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 04:02:20 GMT

A - Age: 23
B - Body art: double piercings in ears; tongue piercing; tattoo on lower back
C - Career in future: currently is journalism, but am rethinking that
D - Dad's name: kenneth (carter)
E - Easiest person to talk to: any of my close friends, really
F - First Kiss: michael h. back in 5th grade
G - Greatest Trip: nyc in october
H - Hometown: *technically* two -- pusan, south korea; and tacoma
I - Instruments you play: clarinet; guitar. also, to a lesser degree, drums, alto sax, piano
J - Job title: sports copy editor
K - Kids: good lord no
L - Last Kiss: ji hoon kissed me on the cheek a couple weeks ago
M - Mom's name: tina
N - Nationalities: korean
O – Oldest (time wise) friend: katie, from back in 6th grade
P – Worst Fear(s): never finding happiness
Q - Quote you like: "happiness can be achieved by using your patience." ~unknown
R - Religion: raised christian, currently none
S - Siblings: younger bro, ken (21)
T - Typical Hobbies: listening to music; reading; writing; chatting with friends; going out (but not clubbing type out); traveling; trying new things
U - Unknown fact about me: i always put on my pants before i put on my shirt (don't ask me; i don't know why. i just do. =p)
V - Voting Preference: liberal
W - Worst habit: procrastination
X - X-rays you've had: teeth, head (ct scan), foot, back
Y - Yummy food: kimchi jjigae!!
Z - Zodiac sign: aries

testing hangul in lj...

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 19:37:32 GMT

남자: 내가 어떻게 했으면 좋겠어?

여자: 다신 전화 하지마.

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 03:34:11 GMT

Oh man, I don't think I can sing *at all* anymore till I've visited a throat doctor/voice coach/whatever. Yesterday I sang about a minute's worth of "The Voice Within" for Lena, and today my throat is so sore it hurts to swallow. Must get throat checked out soon. Unfortunately, doctor visit requires money. Stupid money.

Misc Nats babblings

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 00:04:16 GMT

I watched the ladies SPs about an hour ago. I won't even get into the whole MK's time thingy -- what I wanna know is where the FUCK are the deductions for Ando and Arakawa?? The second jump of Miki's combo was severely pre-rotated and underrotated at the end; the first jump of Shizuka's combo was underrotated quite a bit, and the second jump was horribly underrotated by about 1/2 a turn. I can't remember the "mandatory" deductions off the top of my head, but I believe it should've been anywhere from 0.1-0.3 depending on how severe. I'd have taken off 0.2 for Shizuka's combo and probably the same for Miki's. Not to mention both of them lipped horribly as well, so that should've been another deduction right there. And if the judges deducted for MK's "traveling" spin (honestly, it wasn't *that* bad) then they should've done the same for Shizuka's camel. Yet both Shizuka and Miki got quite a bit of 5.8s and even a few 5.9s for technical merit. It seems like the judges are rewarding merely *trying* the 3/3s...who cares how you actually land them. Whatever. *rolls eyes*

I was heartened watching MK, though. Her jumps were rock solid, perfect landings, and she didn't look "slow" or "tentative" or "cautious" like some people claim. She wasn't quite on with the music so I can see maybe a 5.8 for pres, but 5.6 and 5.7 is absurd. Sasha deserved first place on the merit of her better spins, and better selling her program than MK did. Wouldn't call it 6.0-worthy, but the judges have been handing out 6.0s like candy all Worlds long so I guess they don't mean as much anyway. Oh, and the judge who gave MK a 5.1 for tech merit? Should be shot.

Anyway, I think it's safe to say I will eat my hat if MK somehow wins Worlds this year. To do that, she would have to win the SP and hope Smasha finishes 4th or lower -- and let's be realistic, there is no way the judges will place Sasha that low unless she has the meltdown of the century. I think she would have to fall three times before the judges even consider it, and well, she usually only falls twice. =P And that's not counting Miki and Shizuka holding up their end of the deal and skating well enough for some combo of silver and bronze. Yup, with the way things are going I'll be thrilled to see MK get the silver. I just hope she goes out there and does her thing and is happy with how she performs in the end. Just say "screw everyone" and go for it.

Oh, and yes, I was a dork and timed MK's SP. FYI, I got 2:40.18 from the time she started moving to the time she stopped. *siiigh* So it appears she *was* over 2:40. Man, that totally blows. There's supposed to be a ruling on it "within 24 hours," but it doesn't matter anyway because the referee's ruling is going to stand no matter what. There's no way to undo him having assessed the time penalty. MK's stuck with it, he's stuck with it, we're stuck with it. He might get some kind of sanction later if it is found he was in the wrong, but the current results can't/won't change. This Worlds sucks. Maybe Michael, Jenny and I should just get trashed tomorrow night instead. =P

OOPS

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 05:41:04 GMT

Evidently I don't know my days of the week. I was tearing off a bunch of pages on our page-a-day Simpsons calendar at work and thinking "Wow, no one's done this in a long time." Then I got to the 29th and it dawned on me: "Heeeeey wait a sec...I haven't had my birthday yet." Somehow I got a week ahead of myself, d'oh. Will have to find some tape to attach the loose pages back to the calendar...

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 01:23:01 GMT

Oops, I just saw that I put my emotion under "music" instead of "mood" for the previous entry. Oh well, me too lazy to fix it. Stomach settled down enough for me to eat bibimbap with Lena at lunch; am now munching Mini Eggs (evil!!) while I wait for stuff to come over the wire at work.

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F I R S T S
First screen name: hayls1 (old old aol s/n)
First self-purchased tape: i *think* one of the paula abdul tapes -- the dance mix one.
First funeral: can't say for certain, but possibly my best friend katie when i was 14. that's the first one i have vivid memories of, anyway.
First piercing/tattoos: ears
First credit card: capital one (wtf kind of question is this??)
First true love: ummm yeah. next...
First enemy: don't have one, but if i had to pick, my ex-friend gena.
First big trip: from korea to the u.s. when i was little =P
First concert: first *big* concert? my friend's dad took us to see the beach boys when we were like, 10 years old.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: the beatles
First relationship: michael h. in 5th grade. geez, i haven't even *heard* about him in years.

L A S T S
Last big car ride: road trip to b.c. a few years ago
Last library book checked out: can't remember
Last movie seen: saw the end of "thelma & louise" on amc the other night. (ginny, we should SO watch this together next time you're back)
Last beverage drank: sipping a coke right now to stay awake
Last food consumed: mini eggs (gosh, i'm eating like shit today...except for the bibimbap)
Last phone call: borany
Last cd played: kpop mix in the car
Last annoyance: asshole driver on the way to work who didn't signal to turn left and suddenly braked so i almost hit him
Last soda drank: HELLO, i just said i was drinking a coke...yeesh.
Last ice cream eaten: ummmmmm...ben & jerry's with michael a couple weeks ago? mmmm...ice cream.
Last time scolded: not a clue.
Last shirt worn: like the one i'm wearing now? =P which is a blue t-shirt with a hoodie over it
Last website visited: mkf, i think
Last relationship: next question...

I AM: tired and sad and empty
I HAVE: really dark circles under my eyes right now (ewwwwww)
I HATE: this feeling in the pit of my stomach
I FEAR: loving and being hurt
I HEAR: everyone's voice inside but my own
I SEARCH: for an inner peace i lost and haven't since refound
I WONDER: why i've become so dependent lately when i used to not be
I REGRET: missed chances
I LOVE: those who love me
I ACHE: everywhere
I ALWAYS: spend too much time on aim (damn you people)
I AM NOT: untrue to my heart
I DANCE: less often than i should
I SING: even when i don't realize it
I CRY: unexpectedly at the most random times
I AM NOT ALWAYS: good at hiding how i feel
I WRITE: not much now that i'm not reporting anymore
I WIN: woohoo?
I LOSE: my damn keys too often
I CONFUSE: everyone, including myself
I NEED: to be closer to my friends
I SHOULD: get back to work -_-

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 06:46:55 GMT

What Classic Movie Are You?.

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 23:55:04 GMT

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know someday you'll be a star
in somebody else's sky
But why can't it be mine?

back by popular demand...

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 00:52:10 GMT

Gotta love NYC...quotes

"TOSCA?!?!?!?"
(everyone)

"This water tastes like ass."
(Me, talking about bottled lemon water I bought at Duane Reade, a drugstore)

"These zinc lozenges taste like ass."
(Me, talking about some ill-tasting vitamins I bought for my cold)

Heather: You say everything tastes like ass.
Me: I do not! Just the water...and the zinc lozenges.

"Sad is bad."
(Me, sharing my deep thoughts on depression with Grace)

"Happy good."
(Me, ditto)

"Thinking bad."
(Grace's and my life motto)

"Love bad."
(ditto)

"Songs bad."
(ditto)

"Love songs bad."
(sure, why not combine the two? ^^)

"I'm missing holes in my head!"
(Grace, trying to say Lord knows what)

"If we get our lobotomies it's not as bad, because we'd only be missing a lobe."
(Grace, talking crazy late at night)

"Can we have normal water instead?"
(Me, to the waiter at a French bistro, after asking for flat water and getting bubbly instead)

Me: Uhhh...shouldn't we throw those out?
Grace: It's OK. It's still good!
(talking about three-day old panini sandwich leftovers that were in bags on our hotel room floor)

Me, trying to reach Brianna on my cell: I'm going to try Bri one more time.
Googoo: OK, what part of "disconnected" don't you understand?

"Ginny, it's Hayley. Sorry I didn't answer my phone earlier. It's 11:30 right now, and I'm just calling to let you know that I got your message, but Grace and I are still sleeping. We'll call you once we're up. Talk to you then."

"Ginny, it's Hayley. It's about 2 and Grace and I are still in bed, and I think we're getting up soon, but I don't know for sure when. So I'll call once we're ready to go, and then maybe we can meet you, Terri and Goo somewhere. Talk to you later."

"Hey Ginny, it's Hayley. It's 4:30, and Grace and I just now got out of bed. We still have to take showers and everything, so do you want to just meet for dinner?..."

"From now on I'm going to call 'Ben's' 'Neb's.'"
(Grace, trying to help me forget my ex-b/f Ben by renaming a deli we ate at)

Goo, coming to find me already seated at "Rent": What are you doing, fool? You're in the wrong row! We're supposed to be up there.
Me: Nuh uh, we're row B, and this is row...oh.

Me, looking at an ad for a Korean restaurant in the "Rent" playbill: Hmm...I wonder what the "D" means.
Goo: Dog food. Oh, my gosh, I totally did not mean it like that! I'm so sorry!

Me: Hi, it's Sarah. No wait, it's not. Hi Sarah, it's Hayley.
(trying to make a phone call after waaay too little sleep)

"Oh HELL no..."
(Me at Madame Tussaud's Wax Museum, after realizing Heather, Grace and I almost left without seeing Michelle's wax figure)

"Look, Wayne is checking out Michelle's ass!"
(Me at Tussaud's, pointing out the way the Wayne Gretzky figure was positioned behind the MK figure)

Grace: Probably.
Me: Did you say "Paboyah?"
Grace: No, I said "Probably."
Me: Oh. I knew that.

Grace's shopping list for Heather and me at Duane Reade:
-water
-snacks that we think look good and go with water
-something gummi (no bears)
-something good in a movie theater so we don't have to use their stuff

Me, at DR, holding up a bag of chips: Does this count as...hang on...(looks at Grace's list)..."something good in a movie theater so we don't have to use their stuff"?
Heather: Yeah, that should be fine.
Me: Ooooh, and it goes with water too. Sweet.

"I don't remember anything about a bridge."
(Me, to Grace on the W train, after our attempt to travel from Times Square to SOHO in Manhattan results in a trip to Brooklyn)

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 03:03:43 GMT

For some reason I actually feel physically better today than yesterday. Go figure. My sore throat is mostly gone but I'm still having chills. *sigh* Four more hours and I get to go home and sleep.

i feel like shit

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 09:44:42 GMT

Man, I am coming down with one HELL of some kind of illness. Can't tell exactly which one yet, but I know it's either a bad cold or the flu. My throat hurts so much I can barely swallow, my head feels hot and I keep getting chills. And I have to work tomorrow cuz I have a meeting at UW, and then tomorrow night is a huge preps sports night and I'm the preps sports coordinator. Damn me. :( I'm heating up some oksoosoocha (Korean corn tea) and then going to bed.

It's amazing how much your mental state depends upon your physical state. I was actually doing not too bad these past couple days, but now I feel sad and depressed and lonely again. Blech, I can't stop shivering.

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 01:45:19 GMT

Here's how loopy I am right now...part of an actual convo I just had with Grace:

[Grace]: You should be glad that you didn't see me just now.
[Hayley]: I should be glad that...whatever you just said?

quote of the day

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 08:31:00 GMT

[amelia]:
boys are stupid
they are as stupid as money

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 20:26:29 GMT

Here ya go, Sarah =)

http://www.ziyifilms.com/members/yjl923/shoofeellike.wma

OK, I just realized Shoo's voice does not match her physical appearance at ALL...

"twilight zone" translation, take II

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 10:19:05 GMT

ok, i *SWEAR* shoo is really saying "i wanna ride up in your open golf..." o.O even though the cd booklet claims she's not. =P but she really is, i tell ya! why don't you people believe me? :'(

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 22:12:31 GMT

I am seriously going to hurt someone the next time Peggy mentions a "beautiful new Vera Wang costume." Really. Geesh, no wonder skating outsiders think skating is a beauty pageant on ice. I think she's even brainwashed Michelle, cuz I vaguely remember Lisa Guerrero asking MK about her LP performance and one of the first things MK mentions is her Vera costume. UGH! *smacks self*

My hair is "natural" dark brown again. I say "natural" because I had to dye it back that color after all the highlighting. Man, it looks so dark! It looks so strange to me after having highlighted hair for the past couple years. But hopefully I'll be used to it in a few days. At least the people who have noticed so far like it. My boss says it looks good, and I trust his word on physical appearance type things more than most people's...so I guess it's alright.

Ugh, I'm dreading having to work that double at the P-I tonight. I miss Cynthia and Julie. At least they're enjoying Seoul so far. They called me a few nights ago, actually Cynthia called and I talked to her first...all the while Julie was in the background singing "chokarak! chokarak!" over and over again. "Chokarak" = "chopsticks" in Korean, which she'd just learned how to say, and she was so proud of herself that she felt the need to make a song about it. That girl is a nut. But then, I remember when Chrissy and I used to make up songs about being able to drive in the carpool lane to Bellevue and back. HEY, having carpool for the 520 is a big deal, give us a break, ok? =P

Alright, I'm going to cut off my entry right here before I say anything else that makes me look stupid. =P

haru ddoh haru sshik chi wuh bohl kkae...

Mon, 12 Jan 2004 08:53:55 GMT

Boy, am I a sight to behold right now. I just finished the Hangul to the below-mentioned Bada song (that beautiful one she sang in that vid) and I'm sitting here wiping away the tears that were streaming down my face. That song is so haunting. And I can relate so well to it right now, blech. The English translation is coming soon...I'll try to get it done before I leave for San Diego next Sunday, but if not then maybe I can finish it down there. To everyone who's been eagerly awaiting it, hold your horses a bit longer. ^_^

To start on a positive note, congrats a million times over to MK for her eighth consecutive national championship!! That girl is UNBELIEVABLE. Every time she does something spectacular, I think, "there's no way I could possibly be more in awe of her"...and then she goes and blows me away all over again. I still am not crazy about Tosca the program, but her performance was brilliant. It's like she took off for another planet when she launched into her fw sequence, WOW. No wonder she finished so ahead of her music -- she FLEW through the fw. MK is one of the best athletes ever. Not just one of the best skaters. One of the best athletes. Ever. To keep delivering time and time again, with the quality of performances she has, is incredible. And I get really sick of people saying she should retire if she's not going to do blahblahblah, yadayadayada. I still can't believe Val actually said that. It's sad she thinks that way when she used to be such a loyal fan. And it's sad for anyone to think like that, period. MK has given SO much to the sport and has never asked for anything in return. *shakes head*

Boy, the pairs event sure stunk this year. Michael and I were sitting there trying not to fall asleep during the LPs. I seriously think he and I actually spent more time watching my screensaver (pics slideshow) than the skating. Finally I had to shut my monitor off when the ladies came back on, cuz it kept distracting us. And are he and I the only evil ones, or did the bloopers segment of that U.S. skaters fluff piece crack anyone else up? ^^;;

Feeling a bit overwhelmed, on top of the usual shittiness, that I'll be in San Diego this time next week, and that my interview is in about one week and 12 hours from now. Eeeeeeeek!! @_@ I feel like I have so much to do here before I go, so many loose ends to tie up...and I have so little time to do it. But I'm really looking forward to going down, regardless of whether the job works out. And it'll be great to see Grace and Yvonne and Borany. Gracie-ya, I hope you're not getting sick but if you are, get better before I come down! ^_^

Ugh, I keep meaning to do these deep-thought entries, but by the time I actually get around to making an entry I've lost my desire to. Oh well, guess it can wait.

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 20:55:47 GMT

Damn me for oversleeping today...missed the gym (it's privately owned and closes at noon on Saturdays) and probably don't have enough time to go shopping before meeting up with Michael later. And the gym is closed tomorrow, and I don't think I can go on Monday either, because I have a hair appt in the morning and then I have to work a double at the P-I. *sigh* Yuck, I need to clean my room before Michael comes down.

That MKF testing thread I started is completely insane. Everyone else seems to think it's *the* testing thread and posts in it. Funny, but at the same time it's like wtf?

OK, I thought I was in the mood to do an entry but I guess I'm not. I'll add more later tonight -- hopefully with good news from Nats.

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 05:48:27 GMT

It's 24 right now. Degrees. Farenheit. I am SO COLD. My fingers have barely any feeling in the tips. Have I mentioned I'm inside a heated building? At least the P-I isn't as cold as my room was earlier today -- I had the heat up full blast and the cold was still biting. The side roads coming up were complete ice. I can't believe it's going to be colder these next few days. They're predicting *10* tonight, and supposedly another storm on Tuesday. I can't believe it's this cold and we're not getting snow at the moment. Freezing + no snow = SUCK.

I'm getting to the point where I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling. The only things I know are that I still feel shitty but I can also sense something's changing. What exactly, or why, I have no clue. I guess I'll just have to wait.

I'm so tired right now...tired and cold. For some reason the evening drives to Seattle put me to sleep. Must be the combination of my car's heater and the darkness, but I've been sitting here all night struggling to stay alert. And of course, the instant I get home and shower I'll perk up again and then my sleeping schedule will be totally wonked. Greaaaat. I'm back to a normal work schedule this week, which will be good even though I mostly enjoyed my time off. I *really* need to start hitting the gym regularly again...it's been over a week since I've gone and I can feel the difference in terms of my energy level and such.

Damn Packers for winning today. Now I have to endure at least another week of being paranoid of typing "Green Gay" at work. >_